At the moment feeling a bit like a rudderless boat. My journey towards 'independence' my friend Jca said. Can't understand this agitation. This impatience,  given to drama at the drop of a pin.... stop. Breathe deeply. I am having to look for my reserves of compassion at the moment. Just having to have a conversation with T is a strain. Can't seem to understand how it got here. The periods of clarity that made me leave Mdm - to re connect to that, and to abide more by it. Not be distracted and therefore scatter away energies.